Heartache

When I was 3 months old .. my body couldn't take the feel of outside world .. I always fell sick and my mom has no idea how to take care of me .. I was accepted by the maternal grandparents ... they promised my parents that they would take care of me and turn me into to a good and sensible human .. and I'm very proud to say they did and here I'm ..

My grandfather is the one who always believed me .. always thought that I could be someone who he couldn't be. When I was in 4th grade or so .. he started sharing all his life experiences .. what his family is .. how he grew up .. what all things he did during his childhood.. how he escaped the classes and stole the mangoes from the near by farms ..and when he realized education is important to ones life.. I used to follow his stories and enjoy every moment in them .. I always used to think .. one day when I'm older enough I should give my grandfather all the things he missed in life ..
Time passed .. I completed my 10th, Inter, engineering and now I m in search of a job ....
but I dont have my grandfather anymore .. its been an year he died and I still feel him in my life .
All the words he told me how hard life can be and how strong I need to be when I face such situations in life are still so clear to me ... he always used to say may be one day you will realize the true nature of hardwork .. it does pay you .. but its just the time .. we need to wait for the right time .. no matter what people think about you just remember you are what you are and everybody have the right to accept you as well as reject for the same .. dont have grudjes on anyone it's just waste of time and energy,it will take away all your happiness .. someday everything's gonna be alright and that day is not too far .. give what you can expect none .. and when we are in a relation whatever that relation may be dont expect anything from them ..just accept and love them for what they are .. help people who are poorer than you and never be jealous of anyone whoz rich than you .. thank god for what ever he gave you .. this list goes on and on ..

We have a belief that after his death and before 1 year of ceremony his soul would wander around us and keep us safe .. hez like our guardian angel .. but after the ceremony he would meet his ancestors and he will be them forever ..I hope everything should go well and may your soul rest in peace .. please forgive me for all my mistakes and I know how much I miss you as I could see you for the last time and I couldnt even make it today ...

Whereever you are I know you will take care of us and bless us .. but just a last few words before I bid good bye to you my dear grandpa .. I love you , I miss you the most and I know I can never have a friend like you agagin in my life .. be with me and guide me , give me the strength to face difficult situations in life , shower your love and blessing for all the happy moments in life ..

Miss u and love u